(via blue-is-thenewblack)

Sometimes I’m scared I’m acting childish. - Sometimes I wonder about the future. As I’m living life I picture things, how situations will go, how I will handle things in my life.. We don’t see the whole story. In my head I could picture the 2 years of my life given to that One Night as years to get past, get through, get over. I could have pictured it as a ‘low’ and a point where I didn’t have many opportunities or was able to live up to my potential. But in the whole story, looking BACK, it could be totally different. Those 2 years could’ve been protecting me, keeping me safe. They could’ve taken away something bad, something dangerous because I couldn’t recognize the danger; couldn’t see my imminent degradation. They could’ve kept me far away and unable to reach how I was hurting myself, literally guided me right into Josh’s gaze. They gave me some of the best best best and happiest times of my life thus far. They took away an extra stress that helped me get better. They literally forced me to stay in place, to better only what I could, to figure things out. I’ve never been more sure that a night was integral to my life other than that One Night; one of the worst of my life.